❝ you can’t ever be really free if you admire somebody too much , i know . ❞
❝ you must go on a long journey before you can really find out how wonderful home is . ❞
-`🍚 | 約 ﹆
fernpaw is wise for his age, much thanks to his mentor and personal experiences. he thinks a lot (he really likes to), which leads to him learning from nearly everything, wanting nothing more than to pass on his knowledge to whoever he enjoys spending his time with. the tomcat's words can be so simple, but one could easily find the meaning behind them. he spends as much time as he can out of camp, sometimes wandering off territory, embarking on his small lonesome adventures. nearly every morning he goes for a walk, relishing in the smells and sounds and sights that not many others get to enjoy so often.
for a moon of every leafbare, he wanders far from the clans, but always returns to remind himself that skyclan really is the best of all places, its what he calls home. it wouldn't matter where skyclan was, fern finds home in cats and feelings, not what's physically surrounding them. he finds ecstasy in alone time, especially with nature, humming tunes to himself. spending too much time around other cats exhausts him, hurts him. he found at a young age that gatherings caused him to feel unbelievably caged in. he never felt something to close to resentment. its not that he hates other cats or avoids them, he just prefers to do most things alone. but alas, he could never grow to hate anything. hes much too easygoing and care free, meeting every new cat with curiosity and a warm heart. besides, he does enjoy the company of his friends.
the tom does, however, often suffer from self-doubt. since the trauma from his father, he often has nightmares of his dearest friends forgetting about him, or disliking him. of course, for someone who enjoys thinking a lot, there always has to be those negative thoughts. overthinking. he hopes that, one day, he can be confident.
call it a rebellious phase, but he doesn't particularly enjoy having authority figures. he's 100% willing to conspire against anything, but he respects what the leaders do for their clans. you could say he's an anarchist, even. he is not fond of intrusive cats, he values his privacy greatly. aside from that, he can admire almost everything. even what seems "ugly" to others. he's truly fascinated with the world and everything it can bring. he wouldn't dare hurt anything if he didn't have to. i suppose he's like the young cat version of bob ross.
he claims to avoid all that is romantic, but once he comes across a lovely tomcat? he'll sacrifice all he can for him- he may not verbally proclaim his love, but he'll sure show it.
for a moon of every leafbare, he wanders far from the clans, but always returns to remind himself that skyclan really is the best of all places, its what he calls home. it wouldn't matter where skyclan was, fern finds home in cats and feelings, not what's physically surrounding them. he finds ecstasy in alone time, especially with nature, humming tunes to himself. spending too much time around other cats exhausts him, hurts him. he found at a young age that gatherings caused him to feel unbelievably caged in. he never felt something to close to resentment. its not that he hates other cats or avoids them, he just prefers to do most things alone. but alas, he could never grow to hate anything. hes much too easygoing and care free, meeting every new cat with curiosity and a warm heart. besides, he does enjoy the company of his friends.
the tom does, however, often suffer from self-doubt. since the trauma from his father, he often has nightmares of his dearest friends forgetting about him, or disliking him. of course, for someone who enjoys thinking a lot, there always has to be those negative thoughts. overthinking. he hopes that, one day, he can be confident.
call it a rebellious phase, but he doesn't particularly enjoy having authority figures. he's 100% willing to conspire against anything, but he respects what the leaders do for their clans. you could say he's an anarchist, even. he is not fond of intrusive cats, he values his privacy greatly. aside from that, he can admire almost everything. even what seems "ugly" to others. he's truly fascinated with the world and everything it can bring. he wouldn't dare hurt anything if he didn't have to. i suppose he's like the young cat version of bob ross.
he claims to avoid all that is romantic, but once he comes across a lovely tomcat? he'll sacrifice all he can for him- he may not verbally proclaim his love, but he'll sure show it.
physicals
height➳ tall
weight➳ slightly underweight
scars➳
build➳ slim, minimal muscle but still strong
pelt length➳ medium-short
pelt quality➳ messy, doesn't clean often
eye color➳ dusty green
main➳ lilac, lighter dilution of brown
markings➳
social standpoint➳ a mess, almost handsome in a way
height➳ tall
weight➳ slightly underweight
scars➳
build➳ slim, minimal muscle but still strong
pelt length➳ medium-short
pelt quality➳ messy, doesn't clean often
eye color➳ dusty green
main➳ lilac, lighter dilution of brown
markings➳
social standpoint➳ a mess, almost handsome in a way
quirks
he takes regular visits to the elders den, and communication between him and the older cats are on the same level. they treat each other equally, unlike most elder-apprentice relationships.
as hinted at above, his talk is somewhat old-fashioned, and is often seen as cute for those words coming from such a young, childlike voice.
his voice can be referenced to edvin endre.
he doesn't show much interest in romance, but will likely hide it if he does. he refrains from admiring someone too much.
he spends so much time away, some forget he's a part of riverclan. some forget of his existence (adds to his fears).
he takes regular visits to the elders den, and communication between him and the older cats are on the same level. they treat each other equally, unlike most elder-apprentice relationships.
as hinted at above, his talk is somewhat old-fashioned, and is often seen as cute for those words coming from such a young, childlike voice.
his voice can be referenced to edvin endre.
he doesn't show much interest in romance, but will likely hide it if he does. he refrains from admiring someone too much.
he spends so much time away, some forget he's a part of riverclan. some forget of his existence (adds to his fears).
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